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May 31 NeArLlY nExT mOnTh!!TOMORROW WE CAN SAY: CASEY AND DANMAN WILL BE HERE NEXT MONTH !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! May 30 THE GODFATHER
The Godfather, accompanied by his attorney, walked into a room to meet with his accountant.
May 29 cough sneeze splutter choke wheeze moanGet the message?? Things are Crook at the Griffo house atm. It started with Mark leaving work early on Tuesday after vommitting for 2 hours in the bathroom. I got home from work, he was in his bed, I got home from dancing 3 hours later, he was in his bed. Next morning, he was still in his bed... So I knew he really WAS sick. The next day was CJ and Cons Sports Carnival. CJ had woken up very snuffly. She got dressed in her trackie and as we were getting in car she said (very stuffed up) 'I feel really sick Mummy, my throat is so sore.' I thought to myself, 'why am I sending her to school to sit out in the playground on a cold autumn day when her father is home in bed.' So I sent her inside and she stayed home. Then, at lunchtime I started to get the shakes. I was almost finished my 'normal day' because it was Open Day at 2 of the schools I went to which means I couldnt see those kids anyway. I perservered through my HS kid and then came home. Got home and took some panadol, gave CJ some and the phone rang. It was school. Connor was in sick bay! So, went up and got him, his was more from heat exhaustion I reckon. He'd won his running race at the carnival and was on such a high he wouldnt stop running in everything. Well, brought him home and dosed him up and they both went and lied down for an hour. Then Mum (who is sick too) turned up to take them to RG. I shouldnt have sent them, but I did (Wedn is the BIG day). CJ tried her best, but was very crook. Con was just plain naughty... I went out and taught, felt horrendous and took some panadol before I taught and took my temp - 39.5 - oh joy! Woke up this morn and would have kept them home but CJ has science test at school So wrote a note that said if she still felt unwell after test she could come home. My own head has settled a bit - I dont have the shakes atm, thankfully. The drugs really do help. Mark went to work today. Late, but he went. Very stuffed up, but he went! I hope that Con and Dee dont get it (but Im afraid they will :( May 28 Project Time I am so proud of CJ. She has her first real school project at the moment. And it's on National Parks. So she is a lucky girl, considering we can get a plethora of information from Mark (which we have been) Every night she has sat down and done at least one page of writing. (It is currently 17 pages long!) And tonight she did the last bit of writing and is onto the 'pretting up' It is due at the end of next week. She is doing hers on the Royal National Park. I really hope she does well because she has put so much effort in. I have helped her with the organisation of it all. I wrote out the rough copies whilst she dictated to me. And then she has copied them into her project book. She was a bit worried about having a book not a piece of cardboard but I told her a book was better. Sure enough, when she told Mrs K at school the Teacher said 'I much prefer that Ceilidh, it means I can read it much easier than a rolled up cardboard project' so she was happy when she heard that. As soon as this one finishes we need to start on the next one, which is due the end of Wk10. It is on Cycles. She has to choose a cycle - any cycle, like moon, or plants or frogs etc. So I want to think of a good one that noone else might do.... Any ideas???? May 27 Leanne at Gymberoo At the competition on Saturday Leanne decided that she would try and get some of the single chairs that were at the back of the storeroom. That was great. let me just add that to get to the back of the storeroom she had to climb over the rows of joined chairs, over the mats and bulges on the floor over the huge gym mat and then jump down to the group of chairs and tables!!! I just had to get my phone out and snap!!!! May 26 cj visits the opthamologist!I've been wanting 2 get her there for ages and have basically just been a lazy bog! Well finally, after she came home from school and told me that she had been benchmarked at a level 28 (and her brother is reading a level 24) I knew it was time for me to pull my finger out and do something. So - I booked her into the Behavioural Opthamologist in Liverpool. The appointment was supposed to be last Friday, but the machine was broken. So it was rescheduled for today. Well - her sight has deteriorated quite a bit, but it isn't just her sight, its the muscles in her eyes etc. We have ordered new glasses ($150) and she has to go back after she has had them for 2 weeks and learn some exercises that must be done for 10mins every night. The optomotrist also said she wants her re-tested for her reading as the day she was tested she didnt have even her old glasses. She said she has alot of trouble tracking, but the new specs will fix that. The great difference I noticed since her last test (which was -ahem- 3.5years ago) was that she could follow all the instructions and do alot tricker stuff - so they could get a more accurate reading. I guess that an audiologist would be similar in a hearing test. So here is a pic of her with the groovy machine on!!!!!! She has chosen very cute pink armed glasses. She really wanted some gorgeous red ones - and they were gorg. But they were also $160 (the ones she really wanted were $190) plus $80 for the lenses. With the way she treats things I couldnt justify it. Oh, and guess what - there are FRED BARE glasses!!! But they were $220!! PLUS THE LENSES!! May 25 tired and shitty and wanna go to bed! This weekend has been the Eastern Australian Championships that my dancing association run. My friend and I are the competition secretaries. So everything, leading up to the comp is what we organise - prizes, entries, programme, sashes, medals, judges sheets, plus a zillion other things. Add to that I had students competing, and Connor competing and the kids at dancing on Saturday (just 15min from the venue) and the kids at a party today and cj at a sleepover party last night and my own dancing lessons yesterday morning. BLOODY GLAD IT IS ALL OVER May 24 Poor Beau :(Mark's mum spent the day in hospital yesterday. A few weeks ago she told us that she was really tired. She just put up with it for a few days and then went to the Dr who took blood tests etc and sent her to a cartiologist for tests. Well, she had those tests yesterday, and - a few weeks ago - she had a mild heart attack!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So the Dr sent her straight to the hospital for more tests. She is allowed to come home today as the angiagrams came back in safe levels or something. HOwever, it (obviously) needs to be followed up. I bet it has shaken her up dreadfullly. Her younger brother (Mark's uncle) suffered a heart attack (not fatal thankfully) about 10 years ago, he would only have been in his 40's. Beau will be 67 in July. I dont know what Mark's grandparents died of, but I want to find out because it looks like heart disease runs in their family. So Nannie Beau's been told to take it easy for a few weeks - HAH!!!! May 23 We're on Strike!!! Yesterday was a Teachers Strike. It was lovely (because I didnt have to strike as I dont work Thurs anyway) to have the kids at home. Really, it should have been a day of staying at home, getting everything ready for comp on the weekend, clean house, let kids rest etc etc. But did we do that???????? NUP!!! We met up with the Clique out at the Yummy Mummy Cafe in Campbelltown. It is this awesome cafe run by the YWCA and BENEVOLENT SOCIETY. The food is sooo cheap and yummy and they have all these activities for the kids. We arrived at 10.30 and left at 2.30!! I got a lovely photo of all the kiddies together - I shall try and put it up BUT Last night computer crashed again. My big one that just was fixed that cost $90 to be fixed........ I was checking my email and BANG - it went again. So i have to get back onto the computer man - after the weekend that is.... So Im back on the Lappy, which doesn't like to upload photos. I will try later though. Thank goodness for this wee computer. Have a million comp things to do and it looked like I couldnt do any of them. I can't do the important one with the music :( Because I dont ahve the programme on this computer, and mum and dad dont either, so I can't go down there. poor Leanne has to add that to her list of 'to do' things. Oh - and Darcy reminded me this morning that I have to get Connor's kilt ready for the comp tomorrow - I had forgotten!!!!!! May 21 NICK TWINEY! WOW!!!I've been to see Billy 4 times now. Opening night of the previews - Rhys, January 19th - Lochie, March 14th - Nick and tonight.
I wasn't going to go tonight. As much as i really WANTED to go, I knew we couldn't afford it and it was a luxury. Groceries come first! lol However, all day today I kept thinking 'Tonight's Billy will be amazing - tonights Billy will be amazing.' In the end I sms'd Mark and said 'I so wish I could go to Billy tonight, it's Nick's last night.' And his response was 'If you really want to go just go.' So I JUST DID!! I got home late from work, got online at about 5.45 and looked to see what was available. A single in Row H - centre front. OMG - it was meant to be! As soon as I got there I KNEW I'd done the right thing. Everywhere I looked were Nick's friends from dancing and other dance school families. I sat down next to a lovely lady from Brisbane who was in Sydney for a conference and only got her ticket at 5pm! When I told her it was NIck's last night she was so excited to be going on a special night. Well - about the show - what can I say............. I knew it would be amazing and it certainly didnt let me down. The first time I saw Billy Elliot with Sal was opening night - we were literally blown away. Sobbing, laughing, shaking. The next 2 times I loved it but it didnt have that impact. Tonight - well - tonight was phenomenal!!!!! To see the way the cast was with Nick, they were just so beautiful. His angry dance was A.N.G.R.Y!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! His Letter was sooooo emotional and his voice was great!!!! The pas de deux was awesome - of course! This is, I think my (usual) fav part of the show. I love it when you get an audience that gets so involved - and they were clapping all the aerial work. And then we had Electricity........ OH MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! THE SHOW STOPPED!!!!!!!!!! The applause was thunderous - the standing ovation entire! And it just went on and on and on. Nick was gobsmacked and Billy's dad was beautiful the way he was 'pushing him forward' to receive it! It truly stopped the show for 5 mins! The finale was beautiful, and I cried when i saw Nicks dancing friends run up and throw the flowers on the stage for him!!! The cheer from the cast behind the curtain went on and on and on! It was truly MAGICAL!!!!!!!!!!! And stage door was just MAD!!!!!! I still can't wipe the smile off my face!! I can't go to bed - there is no way I will sleep, I am on such a high. How proud we can be of this amazingly marvelous Sydney boy! How proud his parents must be - what a brilliant job they have done on raising a caring, talented and unpretenscious child. And I was so proud and happy for Mr Grant and Miss Bec! They are the ones that got him there - they put the years of training into him - so it was marvellous to see them there tonight to watch his final Billy curtain! You know what was sad though? There was absolutely no announcement that it was Nick's last night. That was wrong. Thanks for letting me ramble!! Just had to get it all out!!!!!!! May 20 Poor CJ!2 weeks ago we went back to the dentist for CJ to have her 6month check up for that sealant she had put on her molars. Because she is a part of a study, they are watching them closely. When that got done 6months ago, she also got 2 (or 3) fillings, and her mouth was 'looking good'. She has been a good girl since then. She brushes every day, sometimes it might not be twice a day - but she does do it regularily.
Well, when we went back they said firstly that part of the sealant had come off, but that was ok, they expected that, and would treat it. They also said she had 3 new holes. I said 'how can that be, she brushes.' The dentist said 'she needs to floss, but i know that's easier said than done.'
So today was the day that the fillings were being filled.... The dentist (absolutely beautiful woman). Starts working on her. CJ, who is amazingly good in the dentist chair, starts flinching. The dentist starts making some mutterings to the nurse. I hear the words 'dead tooth' and 'goes through'. When she started drilling to fix the first tooth up the top she realised the cavity went through to the 2nd tooth. She said to me 'Ceilidh, you must look after your teeth'. I said 'SHE DOES!!!' Then I said (a little bit emotionally and agro) 'This is how I know that the 'strength' of teeth is genetic, even tho other dentist have told me otherwise.' My mother has bad teeth, I have bad teeth and my children have bad teeth. Ceilidh doesn't eat bad food, and she drinks water far more than she does cordial and rarely has softdrink - perhaps once a week, if that.'
They don't know how her tooth could have become SO BAD in just 6 months. From no caries to a 'dead tooth'. The dentist doesn't like to extract teeth from children, expecially her molars, which aren't likely to come through until she is 12-15. So she did ROOT CANAL!!!!!!!!!!! My poor baby had root canal!! She was in the dental chair for over an hour!! I was so proud of her. She got a bit upset when they explained about the injection and she was a little shakey, but such a good girl!
So we have to go back in a fortnight for the fissure sealant! Imagine if she hadn't been on 6month check ups!!! May 19 Dr ResultsWell, got my bloods back. All fine, really. THANKFULLY!! My iron is very low - 6. and my cholesterol is too high - 8. But there was no problem with all the other tests he did.
So, Im on iron tabs, gotta go back in 6wks. I have to try and lose weight - HA! He even said 'I know that's easier said than done'
My BP was much better too - 130/85
Ive still got appointment with neurologist at end of June.
But I did go to the oesteopath last week also... IT WAS BRILLIANT!! ALmost 2 hours in there, with him going right back into my history. He said my neck is very rigid but that I seem to respond well to manipulation (hjmm - that doesnt sound good! lol). So he reckons it will all be 'fixed' in 6 wks. Better still it was only $30 per visit - with one visit free per month - and that was my first visit! BONUS!! I was a bit sore the next day - but he said that would happen.
Soo - let us hope that everythign is now on the right trck to getting fixed!! Back there tomorrow May 18 Eisteddfod Bliss *cough cough*Back into the eisteddfod scene and I had forgotten just how rotten the system is!!
Do you know that the judge GETS A COPY OF THE PROGRAMME!!! So s/he knows what studio is in front of her!!! Man, does that explain ALOT!!!!! (like why the studio who are 'running' the eisteddfod place very wel - even though they are SHITE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
On a good note, we had a lovely morning. Con's 6&U performance group did 'DO YOU LOVE ME' for the first time. I paid for a dvd, but I wont upload it to youtube, I will send you a copy Case, and I will get you to watch it next time you are over Peta.
They looked so damn CUTE!!!!!! And so little, there were some MIGHTY BIG SIX YEAR OLDS IN THE OTHER TROUPES!! - and it was a straight 6, not average age as well! As Miss J said 'We had 2 six year olds in our group - and so did some of the others!!!'
Here are a few photos of boy - it was all so mixed up (tthis eisteddfod is so disorganised) that I didnt get any group ones, hopefully the teachers got some. CJ took these ones!!! In these shots they have their 'Performance Jackets' over the top of their costumes.
Oh - and Do you Love Me got THIRD!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
May 17 Im In Peril Cheryl - Oh Heavens Mr Evans.....Last night Sal and I went to the LOCAL theatre. The LOCAL PROFESSIONAL theatre. THAT IS 7 mins door to door from my house and about double that to Sally's house!!!
Casula Powerhouse has opened a theatre. And they have some fantastic shows on this opening season> in fact Sal and I dont know how we are going to do it - we want to see virtually everything they have on, and everything is happening in the next few months!!
Anyway, tonight was KEATING THE MUSICAL.. Peta saw this with Rach and raved and raved and raved about it. So, in turn she bought tix for dad for it, which we gave him for Fathers Day or Birthday or Christmas - can't remember what! Mum and Dad loved it too! So when I saw it was coming to Casula Sally and I knew we'd have to go! I arrived home from Highland at 6.05. I heated up the kids dinner that I had made this afternoon. I semi-packed the dancing bag for tomorrow. I told Dee to decide what clothes she wanted for after dancing. I went and put on some makeup and changed my shirt and I walked out the door at 6.30, to meet Sal for dinner in Liverpool. We left the restaurant at 7.30, arrived at the theatre at 7.40 and the show started at 8.00!! It was all so civilized and easy!! When we came out there were, what I thought at first, 2 hire cars. On a 2nd glance we realised the first car had a wee Australian (Or NSW) flag on it. It also had 'crown' numberplates. It was the Governor of NSW! Mrs Bashir was in the audience!! Dont Sal and I keep exulted company!!! lol!
May 16 It's funny how many people watch Raggs!!On Monday I kept the kids home from school - they weren't ill, we were all just a bit 'over it'. I let them have a few hours of playing and then they had to go and clean up the playroom and bedroom.
They didnt watch tv.
My phone was still on silent from the day before, or maybe it was in my bag in the car - whatever it was, I didnt hear it beep - several times...
At 12 I looked at my phone. 2 msgs and a missed call. Connor had been on Raggs! On it lots with a whole heap of RG kids. The kids had been home - we could have watched it! Sally had taken day off work and saw him on there, Mandy was at home and saw him on there!
Tuesday Im at work, I come out of my student time and look at my phone. 2 messages on phone - Dad had flicked over ready for 11.30 news and sees Connor climbing over the desk saying "NEW ZEALAND" (why I dont know!). And Leanne had been at Big W, in the hi-fi section. Looks up at the tv and who is on there but Connor!! Noah was very chuffed!!
Throughout both shows there were flicks of Dee, Bro, CJ, Kaiesha and Boy in the Wags and Wiggles bit. So Thursday is my day at home.... We make sure that we have the tv on ready - we watch it - NUP -NUFFIN on the Dumpster bit. We did see a flick of Dee (she was very chuffed to see herself), CJ, Con and Kaiesha. We didnt see Brodie
Friday - No Con on Dumpster but a big close up on Kaiesha, Ceilidh and Brodie in the Wags and Wiggles bit! Con and Dee werre there too - but only if you knew where to look and what they were wearing.
I have to try and remember to watch it more often now. May 15 2 tags in one week!Well only PETA & CASEY have responded to my last tag - DO IT SALLY, LEANNE, MUM!!!
I was tagged by Lorraine
Here’s how this one works… 1. The rules are posted at the beginning. 2. Each player answers the questions about themselves. 3. At the end of the post, the player then tags 5 people and posts their names, then goes to their blogs and leaves a comment, letting them know they’ve been tagged and ask them to read your blog. What were you doing 10 years ago? Getting prepared emotionally and mentally for the EDD of Rowan :( Five things on my To-Do List 1. clean the house 2. list baby stuff on ebay 3. enter some highland comps and eisteddfods - got the sylls here just not filled them out.
4. Put away clothes in loungeroom 5. Put away things in dishwasher and re-pack Things I would do if I was a Billionaire: 1. Pay off all the families mortgages 2. Buy 3 houses in the childrens names. 3. Take all my family on an extended overseas holiday 4. Live over near RG 5. Be financialy stressfree & give to others! Three Bad Habits 1. sitting with my right leg tucked up under me on any chair (except when driving -but thats about all) 2. unable to 'let go' of things 3. Biting nails. Five Places I've lived: 1. Catherine Field 2. Kirkcaldy Scotland 3. 43 Obrien 4. 87 Obrien 5. Salatiga, Indonesia Five Jobs 1. Assisting Jan at her newsagent/grocery store in Primary school 2. Macca's 3. Spotless Catering (easter show, footy, cricket, concerts) 4. School and Dancing teacher in Australia and in Scotland
5. Mother. Five People I want to know more about
1. Tina
2. Sal Simpson
3. Sally Pape
4. Vanessa
5. Leanne May 14 Finding NeverlandI have still not seen this movie - much to my chagrin. On one of my lovely dancers myspace pages I found this wonderful quote and I had to copy it. It really struck a chord with me. Thanks for posting it Av, so that I could steal it! "Porthos (J.M Barrie's dog) dreams of being a bear, and you want to shatter those dreams by saying he's *just* a dog? What a horrible candle-snuffing word. That's like saying, "He can't climb that mountain, he's just a man", or "That's not a diamond, it's just a rock." Just." Here is a link to the rest of that scene: http://www.imdb.com/character/ch0005641/quotes May 13 The Pyramid ProjectsLynda at Lulusbay is the blogger who did the View From My Kitchen Window meme. It was great fun, and she's set up another challenge. She wanted people to take photos of pyramids they see around and about. With her living in Cairo - she gets to see the real ones!! So, on the way home from dancing the other night, we were stopped at the lights and I grab my phone and fumble around with it trying to get the camera and flash on before the lights changed!! Mum was with us and kept saying 'what ARE you doing??' Me replying 'its for a blog its for a blog' and mum, knowing all about my blog fettishes accepted that willingly. The damn lights changed and I thought I"d missed the opportunity - but thankfully he wanted to turn R through traffic, so I just sat behind him (even though nothing was coming in the other lane and I could have pulled out!) took the photo and then moved on past! LOL So, here is the pyramid that I saw.... pretty pathetic - but I WAS driving - so I reckon I should score extra points for that!!  May 12 Tests and Doctors and all that plasma!I finally went and saw the dr over my headaches. He is not happy about them and has done a full blood work up on me to check out everything. I have to go back and see him on Thursday - and to have a pap smear (i wince as I write it, you can all wince as you read it!)
He also gave me a referal to see a neurologist. I rang and organised that, and have an appointment on Monday 30th June at 8.30am.
He kept asking me if I was getting tingling or numbness in any of my extremities and I dont - really - but then, sometimes I do - but doesn't everyone?
He said he needs to rule out things like MS, as Im of the age etc for that and the eye problem is a symptom of MS............ but it's also what I got when i was a teenager and suffered migranes constantly, and he's pretty sure it's just that.
I guess that after Thursday's results, if nothing shows, he will send me for some scans. He was going to do that right away, but decided to wait until the bloods come back.
He is pretty sure Im iron deficient - surprise surprise surprise!!! I could have told him that!!
My eye is still not right - but I am used to it now (except when it goes really funny and I can't see out of it at all for a few hours). even as I type this the left eye is just 'funny' not quite clear, not alot of perifial vision, a little bit achey etc. Certainly not 'normal'. My BP was quite high when I saw him. It was 140/90 or it might have been 148/90 or 140/98 - can't remember exactly. I knew it was going to be high, I had a tooth ache and head ache whilst I was there, and I was very anxious about seeing him. He is concerned about it, but not enough to put me on tablets - yet - will wait to see next weeks and then take it from there. He did mention thyroid also.. He checked my heart and my lymph nodes and arteries (i think) in my neck and said all that was clear.
I was in there for about 40mins. i really like this dr. He takes everything you say seriously and doesn't fob you off or make a joke about it. He doesn't try to make excuses about things (unlike Brent) and said to me at the end 'what are you worried it is, what is making you anxious?' I said "Im scared Ive got a tumour!" He said ''Try not to be scared about that. It is unlikely that is the case, but we will certainly get to the bottom of all of this."
So although I am not really any calmer, I do feel better having seen him.
Im off to the dentist on 16th June to get tooth pulled out - the one that broke. I am going to try and get in earlier, but have to ring and see if there are cancellations. I also have an appointment at the UNICLINIC in Campbelltown on Tuesday to see the oesteopath students. So all the balls are rolling. Hope I feel better soon now!! The oesteopath appointment is my Mothers Day present to myself. So even though I will be sore after I walk out - i will hopefully feel better too!
Will post results of tests on Thurs... May 11 For mothers on mothers day.........I read this on my friends blog and loved it - Happy Mothers Day to all Mummy's out there!
\ It all began to make sense, the blank stares, the lack of response, the way one of the kids will walk into the room while I'm on the phone and ask to be taken to the store. Inside I'm thinking, "Can't you see I'm on the phone?" Obviously not; no one can see if I'm on the phone, or cooking, or sweeping the floor, or even standing on my head in the corner, because no one can see me at all. I'm invisible. The invisible Mum. Some days I am only a pair of hands, nothing more: Can you fix this? Can you tie this? Can you open this? Some days I'm not a pair of hands; I'm not even a human being. I'm a clock to ask, "What time is it?" I'm a television guide to answer, "What number is the movie?" I'm a car to order, "Right around 5:30, please." I was certain that these were the hands that once held books and the eyes that studied history and the mind that graduated from university - but now they had disappeared into the peanut butter, never to be seen again. She's going, she's going, she's gone! One night, a group of us were having dinner, celebrating the return of a friend from England. Janice had just gotten back from a fabulous trip, and she was going on and on about the hotel she stayed in. I was sitting there, looking around at the others all put together so well. It was hard not to compare and feel sorry for myself as I looked down at my out-of-style dress; it was the only thing I could find that was clean. My unwashed hair was pulled up in a hair clip and I was afraid I could actually smell peanut butter in it. I was feeling pretty pathetic, when Janice turned to me with a beautifully wrapped package, and said, "I brought you this."
It was a book on the great cathedrals of Europe. I wasn't exactly sure why she'd given it to me until I read her inscription: "To Charlotte, with admiration for the greatness of what you are building when no one sees."
In the days ahead I would read - no, devour - the book. And I would discover what would become for me, four life-changing truths, after which I could pattern my work: No one can say who built the great cathedrals - we have no record of their names. These builders gave their whole lives for a work they would never see finished. They made great sacrifices and expected no credit. The passion of their building was fueled by their faith that the eyes of God saw everything. A legendary story in the book told of a rich man who came to visit the cathedral while it was being built, and he saw a workman carving a tiny bird on the inside of a beam. He was puzzled and asked the man, "Why are you spending so much time carving that bird into a beam that will be covered by the roof? No one will ever see it." And the workman replied, "Because God sees."
I closed the book, feeling the missing piece fall into place. It was almost as if I heard God whispering to me, "I see you, Charlotte. I see the sacrifices you make every day, even when no one around you does. No act of kindness you've done, no sequin you've sewn on, no cupcake you've baked, is too small for me to notice and smile over. You are building a great cathedral, but you can't see right now what it will become." At times, my invisibility feels like an affliction. But it is not a disease that is erasing my life. It is the cure for the disease of my own self-centeredness. It is the antidote to my strong, stubborn pride. I keep the right perspective when I see myself as a great builder. As one of the people who show up at a job that they will never see finished, to work on something that their name will never be on. The writer of the book went so far as to say that no cathedrals could ever be built in our lifetime because there are so few people willing to sacrifice to that degree. When I really think about it, I don't want my son to tell the friend he's bringing home from university for Christmas, "My Mum gets up at 4 in the morning and bakes homemade pies, and then she hand bastes a turkey for three hours and presses all the linens for the table." That would mean I'd built a shrine or a monument to myself. I just want him to want to come home. And then, if there is anything more to say to his friend, to add, "You're going to love it there." As mothers, we are building great cathedrals. We cannot be seen if we're doing it right. And one day, it is very possible that the world will marvel, not only at what we have built, but at the beauty that has been added to the world by the sacrifices of invisible women. Great Job, MUM! |
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